Why have i grown cold and detached towards the cousins i once loved. I'm no longer the loving and kind cousin they once knew where there was once love there's now hate. I'm now getting my revenge on them and paying them back for all the wrong things they did to me

when my parents were poor i served in humility and loved my rich relatives dearly but it wasn't reciprocated so i waited patiently for the time to come when they would appreciate me but it never came once my parents became rich i stopped putting up with their mistreatment and lack of love. i realized they'll never love me and now i treat like they dont exist at all i even left the family what has caused this

my cousin hillary reached out after 29 years which i feel is strange i mean he hasnt cared about my existence ever since i was born even when we were poor suffering in shack but now that we're wealthy they wanna be family again. i mean uncle martin hillarys father even wanted us to host his other daughters graduation party at our mansion so my cousin's new found interest in us seems suspicious to me i mean no visit, no call, no text, now they show up i dont wanna have a relationship with such relatives rather than be rude and mean towards him i acted nice but told him im transgender and that im not his brother but his sister. hes now keeping his distance he no longer texts me so my strategy worked so why do you think i used this strategy instead to push him away

my cousin hillary reached out after 29 years which i feel is strange i mean he hasnt cared about my existence ever since i was born even when we were poor suffering in shack but now that we're wealthy they wanna be family again. i mean uncle martin hillarys father even wanted us to host his other daughters graduation party at our mansion so my cousin's new found interest in us seems suspicious to me i mean no visit, no call, no text, now they show up i dont wanna have a relationship with such relatives rather than be rude and mean towards him i acted nice but told him im transgender and that im not his brother but his sister. hes now keeping his distance he no longer texts me so my strategy worked so why do you think i used this strategy instead to push him away

when my parents were poor i played second fiddle to my rich cousin nicholas and tolerated mistreatment from my other relatives but now that my parents are wealthy i come second to no one why is that

when my parents were poor why is it i endured my rich relatives' abuse, humiliation mistreatment and disregard for 20 years. the more they disapproved me the harder i worked to earn their approval. I was obedient, loyal, respecful, caring, kind, understanding and loving towards them. I always had the best behavior and was the good kid in the family that obeyed all the rules but that didn't matter I was still vilified and punished for wrongs my rich cousins had done. I was blamed and called the bad seed but still I put up with it. Where they didn't show me consideration I showed selflessness. I have a passion for acting and a great singing talent I would offer to sing and entertain the prominent guests at the family parties but eventually I was stopped and not allowed to, my self esteem went low and I resorted to being the invisible child not seen and not heard for it was better that way. I played second fiddle to my rich aunts son Jireh and watched him give all the speeches and receive all the family love and support. I would never speak up after all we were the poor relatives begging for handouts. Jireh and my other rich cousins were supported in all their endeavors, i.e academic and career pursuits. Nissi was encouraged to become a pilot. Jireh was taken to a football academy in London. Norman was taken to study at a prestigious university. I on the other hand was neglected, my parents didn't have the money to take me to acting school in Los Angeles and my rich relatives didn't bother supporting my acting career. Eventually my parents became rich and now they're supporting my acting career I can now afford to study in acting school in Los Angeles. But when my rich relatives still treated me the same as they did when we were poor I spoke back to them, I now no longer accept their ill treatment and when they still refused me from performing at a family party and kept complaining i'm pursuing an ungodly career and that im transgender which is sinful I decided to leave them behind and now I no longer see them as relatives or family they no longer exist to me. Why is it that now at 20 I have decided to walk away from them and no longer endure their humiliation and play second fiddle to my rich cousins