At the return of my beloved nickname, I looked at him—really looked at him, and noticed change in him as well that I had been to blind in my own grief to see. I looked past his muscular frame that was a mix of bulky and lean. I looked past the rugged brown hair that I loved, the rough stubble on his handsome face that made him seem all the more devilish, and the piercing green eyes that I could easily and often fall into. I looked past the man that left me breathless and awed, and what I saw once I looked past it all left me shook. I saw the absent of his smile. I saw how stiff he held himself, as if the world was on his shoulders and he was losing the battle to bear it all. I saw hands that opened and clenched, like he didn't know what to do with them. I saw what me keeping my distance and not being open with him was causing him, and it pained me more than knowing the changes I, myself, was going through. I was hurting him by making sure he wouldn't get more hurt, and fuck if that didn't feel messed up and wrong.5Callan took the seat beside me on the bed, and carefully, as if he didn't want me to detect it, he put his arm around me and tugged me close to him, leaving no space between us. Only then, did he let out a sigh of contentment and I could feel a part of him relax.YOU'LL ALSO LIKEYes, Master2.9M94.9K| MATURE CONTENT | "You are fuckíng mine. Do you understand that?" That harsh growl echoed in my head.. His words scarring my mind. I could feel the heat of h...Lusting After Lucifer (18+) ☑259K2.5KThis is an erotic romance. Recommended 18+! Completed. Excerpt: His mouth was back on mine in an instant, the door behind us rattling loudly as he thrust against me. &qu...Not So Delicate ||18+67.4K1.5K"Bastard." She whispered. "Your bastard." He whispered back. ~~~~~~~~★~~~~~~~~ A shy at first girl but wild once you get to know her. Her innocence i...My Master, My Husband (BOOK 1)803K14.4KTHIS BOOK IS 18+/ NOW ON KINDLE VELLA WITH SOME ADJUSTMENTS! "Alright, I'll tell you the rules twice, and I'll need you to memorize them, write them down and give t...Yes, Sirs (Book 1 of Desire's Den)62.3M1.4M"You were ours from the second we saw you," he stated as if I didn't have a choice in it, and the truth was, I didn't need to because he was right. I was their...The Debt1.9M62.2KThe anticipation is too much. I found myself praying for The Boss just to say something, anything. "Strip." Anything but that. My eyes widened to sau...JAKE'S UNDOING (18+) ✔ (LOVE AND OBSESSION...7.4K88Jake despised weak women, especially women who showed interest in him. A strong and independent woman was what could drive the beast in him, but there was Cassie. Adopte..."I've missed this," he confided quietly, his hand once again finding its way to my hair.1"I've missed this too," I echoed, only it was said a lot quieter, with the intention of him not hearing me at all—still, I couldn't keep myself from saying it.Gideon came back not long after, and with a look to make sure that I was okay, he began making us a very late dinner.I tried to force myself to be in the moment, to appreciate the care they were giving me, but it was hard to. My mind wouldn't let up. Even though he was aware of them being here, and was as okay as he could be about it, I was still scared of the possibility of retaliation from him. He'd threatened that he would go to the board of directors at my college and give them proof of Mateo's relations to a student. He somehow knew what type of club Callan had, and who his members were, which could ruin his business if it got out; the members trusted Callan to keep their kinks private and from the public. He had some type of knowledge over Gideon too, something about his past that would ruin him if it ever got out, though my stalker never shared with me what it was—but I believed he truly knew something he shouldn't. A few weeks ago, after the public scene I'd had with Mateo, and Gideon had stormed off, Mateo had hinted that Gideon's childhood had been rough, and I wondered if the thing the stalker knew about Gideon had something to do with his childhood. If that wasn't enough to be scared about, I knew he wasn't afraid to get physical either.

Not taking the time to appreciate the photos, my eyes zeroed in on Callan and Gideon. Meeting their gaze, having their attention focused on me was like a slap of power. They both sat at the table, clearly having waited for us.110Callan's piercing green eyes took me in as I did him. My heart ached as I took notice of the bags beneath his eyes. I had a feeling these days hadn't been easy for him either. He usually looked so well rested, which was surprising given how late he went to bed and how early he arose.33He had his brown, rugged hair lazily styled, the slightly curled ends of it reaching just below his ears. His sharp jaw held a five o'clock shadow, and I squeezed my thighs together, knowing how the rough stubble felt against my inner thighs. He wore a white shirt with the sleeves rolled up, showcasing his tan and muscular forearms. God, he was devastatingly handsome; it almost hurt looking at him.71Gideon was impossible to ignore with his almost ominous presence. He was a huge man, packed with muscles and dressed in skillful ink. I hadn't gotten a good look at all of them, mostly because I'd never gotten to see him naked, but I knew there were more under his clothes than the ones encircling his neck and decorated his hands. It didn't surprise me to see his square jaw clenched or the frown on his face. And it definitely didn't surprise me that his dark eyes were narrowed and that he didn't show any emotion except anger in his expression. That was the Gideon I knew and lo—liked. The starting of a beard showed on his clenched jaw; it was just enough to notice, and I found that it suited him very much. Almost too much.120YOU'LL ALSO LIKEYes, Sirs (Book 1 of Desire's Den)62.3M1.4M"You were ours from the second we saw you," he stated as if I didn't have a choice in it, and the truth was, I didn't need to because he was right. I was their...Submissive Desires345K3.7KThis story is really HOT. Like really really really HOT. It's essentially about a college student learning about her hidden desire to submit to a man, with the help of h...Lusting After Lucifer (18+) ☑259K2.5KThis is an erotic romance. Recommended 18+! Completed. Excerpt: His mouth was back on mine in an instant, the door behind us rattling loudly as he thrust against me. &qu...Solicitude394K7.6KRated R "Please, faster," I begged but he didn't oblige. "No, my control, my pace," he said. Then, I felt his lips on mine as he continued easing in...Sometimes he loves me140K3.2K‼️Content warning and trigger warning‼️ This is a dark romance and contains mature content that is not suitable for all readers. The trigger warnings include: - Assault...DOMINANT✔ (DSD SERIES, BOOK ONE)1.3M31.4K⚠️⚠️Rated Mature ⚠️⚠️ 🌟🌟I do not own rights to images on the cover or the song lyrics in the book. All rights go to the photographers and writers. 🌟🌟 CHRISTINA HASE ...Saving Leah2.1M52.3KSaving Leah Series Book 1 Buy an edited and refined version on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08PTD577S/ref=mp_s_a_1_4?dchild=1&keywords=saving+leah+book&qid=1607281...Mateo left my side to join them at the table. Their collective stares felt like physical touches. I had to force myself to breathe because they literally left me breathless.5I hated being in the room with them, but only because I couldn't do any of the things I wanted. I wanted to greet them with my heart on my sleeves. I wanted to talk honestly and not lie. It didn't feel good that I couldn't be myself around them—be the one I used to be with them.

With hesitant steps, I approached the doorway, my eyes fixed on Kelven's stoic figure. But as I drew closer, I realized with a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that I no longer knew what lay behind those cold, impassive eyes. The warmth and familiarity that had drawn me to him earlier had vanished, replaced by an unsettling sense of distrust and uncertainty.

feel Callan's eyes on me, taking in my position in his arms, but I didn't do anything to meet his gaze. I was done with hope and forgetting my predicament. It didn't help to forget, it only made things worse when I had to face the reality."You know, I came to the club to see you tonight," Callan confessed. "I wasn't going to talk to you or anything, I just missed you."4A soft, barely-there smile touched my lips. I wanted to tell him how much I missed them too, but I swallowed the words."Does that bother you?" he hesitantly asked, as if he was afraid of my answer.2"No, it doesn't bother me," I answered honestly."Good, because I'll probably visit the club again tomorrow, unless...do you want the day off tomorrow? You've been through a lot tonight, and I'm sure Gideon will give you paid leave. After all, this happened at his workplace, and it shouldn't have happened in the first place."He never stopped massaging my scalp, and a soft moan left me at the feeling of his fingers working through the tightness. "But nothing happened, you guys were there to stop it.""And thank God for that. I couldn't handle it if something happened to you. None of us could."1If you only knew how much I feel the same way about you guys, and the steps I've taken so I can make sure that nothing happened to you, I thought.I heard a drawer open and the clinking of what I guessed were the utensils a second before Callan nudged me gently. "Dinner is ready." The smell of pesto grew headier, and I opened my eyes to find Gideon holding a bowl with pasta and what looked to be shrimp in front of me.4With effort, I shifted into a better sitting position to be able to eat, and Gideon placed the dish on my lap. He then went to refill my glass which I'd placed on the nightstand before grabbing a pair of bottles for him and Callan, along with dinner for them both. He took the available seat on my right side, making the bed feel cramped but it was exactly how I wanted it.7The first bite of the dish should've been a delight to my tastebuds after having eaten food that had tasted like cardboard these past days, but it wasn't. It surprised me, how something that smelled so delicious tasted just like a piece of toasted bread with nothing on. From the looks on both Gideon's and Callan's faces, they didn't have the same issue, which meant I was the problem—or rather, my failing mentality was the cause of my problem. It was hard for me to enjoy food these days, and apparently it applied to Gideon's food as well. I forced myself to eat though, trying to sooth the ache in my empty belly.3None of us tried to make small talks, but the silence between us was anything but silent. There was some tension, sure, but most of all, there was a sense of togetherness and the only thing that was missing were Mateo to make us feel complete.2I was so done with this day. So done. Yet...I didn't want this night to end.

Did he grab my hair, which no man had touched ex-cept with reverent love? I begged his leave to change into suitableclothing. Jeering at what he termed my false modesty, he draggedme down the palace corridors, before the shocked gaze of retainers

He looked at me _________________, almost like he had no feelings whatsoever. Responsesruefullyruefullyapatheticallyapatheticallyreflexivelyreflexivelyperemptorily